Monday, March 13, 2006
gastric problems continue to haunt me. perhaps just let me die of that. i don`t want my life anymore.
was on the phone with a few people just now. just hung up not long ago. standing at the corridor listening to the phone and the wind. so peaceful and quiet. just for that moment. earlier on i was reading my folder messages from him. yes, just reminscing was nice enough. i smiled to my handphone, somewhat like an idiot like that. i still keep the messages and i won`t delete them unless i have to. let them serve as a memory for me. nice sweet ones. i know i may not receive them anymore so all the more i treasure. as long as i know he`s fine i`m fine too. but again who really knows? i have a balloon in my house now. and it reminds me of many things again too. should i throw it away??? or i should throw myself away. i don`t know what i`m saying. i can`t sleep again regardless of how tired i am now. i`m quitting soon. real soon.
i have to save her.
and next, myself.
1:50 AM
gastric problems continue to haunt me. perhaps just let me die of that. i don`t want my life anymore.
was on the phone with a few people just now. just hung up not long ago. standing at the corridor listening to the phone and the wind. so peaceful and quiet. just for that moment. earlier on i was reading my folder messages from him. yes, just reminscing was nice enough. i smiled to my handphone, somewhat like an idiot like that. i still keep the messages and i won`t delete them unless i have to. let them serve as a memory for me. nice sweet ones. i know i may not receive them anymore so all the more i treasure. as long as i know he`s fine i`m fine too. but again who really knows? i have a balloon in my house now. and it reminds me of many things again too. should i throw it away??? or i should throw myself away. i don`t know what i`m saying. i can`t sleep again regardless of how tired i am now. i`m quitting soon. real soon.
i have to save her.
and next, myself.
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 1:50 AM
